"I honestly don't even know why she thought she could do this." You heard Ronald say as a chorus of laughs rang around backing up what he just said.
You felt some tears start to well up in your (eye color) orbs. You clenched your teeth and dug your nails into the palms of your hands. It was always like this, you could never catch a break.
"She'll drop out soon enough especially when we start actually getting physical." Another round of laughter rang out; you had enough and turned on your heel quickly and made your way down the hall passing by your teacher; Grell Sutcliff.
You heard Grell calling your name, but you ignored him, you just needed to get away from this atmosphere and be by yourself for a while.
You made your way out towards a giant Oak tree that overlooked a beautiful lake especially when the moon was full just like tonight. It was mesmerizing in your eyes.
Everyone saw the moon as big and beautiful, why couldn't you be viewed like that?
You scoffed at the very thought and pushed it to the back of your mind. Of course not, you were just fat; plain and simple. You could still do everything any 'normal' person could; you were just born to be in this body.
When you joined to be a reaper you were ecstatic, but now because of all the ridicule and bashing you just wanted to drop out and move on with your pathetic, lonely life. To be honest, your only true friend was your teacher Grell.
He was the first person you really opened up to and he actually understood you. He always encouraged you and told you that you were doing great in the program. Though, there was still that nagging feeling in the back of your head that told you he was just saying all of those things to ultimately hurt you in the end.
You really didn't want to believe that seeing as you developed a major crush on the flamboyant reaper. There was just something about him that drew you in and you didn't want to let go.
You knew there was no way he'd like you back anyway. You were probably a waste of space to him like you were to everyone else. You just needed to drop out of the program…maybe drop off the face of the Earth was more like it.
Yeah, you've been in this state of mind for a while, but you were glad you were. It let you see where you belonged in this crazy world…nowhere.
You felt tears fall down your chubby cheeks and land on the hard ground. At that point you started sobbing and yelling just letting all the aggravations of your life out.
"Why did I have to be cursed with this God damn body!" You yelled this out at the lake in frustration as if you expected an answer from the glistening water.
"Why the hell did I even come here…I'm a waste of time and space…" You looked up at the moon as it shined down illuminating everything in its wake. You smiled bitterly at it envying it a bit.
You pictured having a wonderful nightly picnic out here with Grell. The both of you smiling at each other and having a wonderful time, him holding you as the both of you looked out onto the beautiful moon lite lake.
You laughed bitterly at yourself for even coming up with a scenario like that.
"He'd have to be blind to love someone like me…" You laughed at yourself and shook your head as the tears finally stopped coming. You leaned your head against the rough bark of the tree and closed your eyes hoping you wouldn't wake up.
"(your name)!" You groaned lightly as you opened your eyes again to make sure what you heard was correct.
"(your name), dear where are you!!" Your (eye color) orbs widened at the voice coming from the distance.
It was Grell. Was he actually looking for you? Why, it's not like he'd care anyway.
"(your name), please just tell me where you are!" He sounded almost desperate. You sighed and decided to answer the red head and see what he wanted.
"O-over here Grell." You couldn't yell due to your sobbing and yelling fest you had a few minutes ago. Your throat was burning still.
You heard the running of feet on the grass until you felt arms wrap around your chubby form tightly. Grell had his head in the crook of your neck as he tried to catch his breath as he continued to hold you tightly.
"G-Grell, what's wrong?" The reaper finally detached himself from your form and smiled lightly at you and clutched onto your hands.
"I thought you did something horrible to yourself dear." Your eyes widened in surprise at your teacher's proclamation. How the hell did he come up with that kind of conclusion?
"W-what??" You were dumbfounded and didn't know what to say to him as he sighed in relief and sat next to you under the giant Oak tree as he continued to grip your hand.
"I've noticed your change in attitude these past few weeks dear, you haven't been your bubbly, adorable self; you've been gloomy and down." Your chubby cheeks were now flushed with red as he told you this. So, he did really pay attention to you.
"Also, when you passed me in the hall I was going to fun after you then until I heard Ronald say your name and a bunch of laughing so I decided to snoop around and what I found was uncalled for." You bit your lip as you felt some more tears start to well up in your eyes.
"It's all true Grell, why bother arguing against it." The red haired reaper gasped at you and started shaking his head making some of his hair tickle your nose.
He suddenly grasped your shoulder and pulled you into his lap making you squeak out in protest.
"G-Grell, I'll crush you!" You started to struggle against the surprisingly strong reaper only to give up in vain.
"No you won't (your name)! See what listening to those twat's has done to you?!" You looked at him with a raised brow not fully understanding what he was trying to get at.
"You used to be happy (your name), full of energy and wit, but now you seem lifeless and drained and honestly just dead." You looked up into Grell's green eyes that were filled with sadness right now which made you inwardly wince.
"Those twat's are just jealous of you deary, you're the top in every division, Will's top pick for every mission and my greatest student ever." Grell then leaned down and quickly placed a chaste kiss on your plump lips.
"Now listen here (your name), from now on I expect nothing but the regular (your name) back you hear me? No more listening to those nimrods understood? You only listen to me; clear?" You were still dazed at the unexpected kiss as you nodded your head in agreement to everything Grell was saying.
"To make sure everything's cleared up; I honestly love your chubbiness my dear, it suits you well. You're just stunningly perfect in my eyes love."
He smiled down at you showing off his signature shark like teeth as you finally smiled big and bright like you usually did. Grell stroked your (hair color/length) locks at the sight.
"Now that's a beautiful start my adorable (your name)." You blushed again despite your efforts not to.
"Thank you Grell." You wrapped your chubby arms around his neck and hugged him close to you not wanting to let him go.
"How about a real thank you love?" You pulled back from the hug and looked at him questioningly.
He smirked at you and pulled you towards him and captured your plump lips in a kiss. You smiled into the kiss and wrapped your arms back around his neck as his wrapped around your plump waist pulling you closer to him.
You finally overcame you insecurities and worries that you had locked inside yourself for so long. That feeling of worthlessness was resolved thanks to Grell who helped you see the light through all the darkness.
This was your new beginning, with a new partner as well.