Each morning when you woke up and rolled out of bed and got ready for school or Hell in your opinion you knew it would end up as it did every day, a nightmare.
You could practically hear the imitations of cow's they would do as you walked down the hall or the middle school names they would call you like pig, or fatty every time you turned a corner.
You've gotten used to the name calling and other obscene and immature acts they would do towards you. You ignored it entirely and kept a cold expression most of the time.
In a way you weren't used to it…
Thanks to the name calling over the years, there was this voice in your head mocking you, yelling at you.
Look out, the great white Whale's feasting!
Move out of her way before she crushes you!
You felt the tears start to sprout in your eyes as you quickly wiped them away and pounded your head.
"Get out of my head!" You yelled tugging your hair hoping there was a way to get rid of those damn voices.
You knew the years of verbal abuse had taken a toll on you, emotionally scarred you deeply, but you wouldn't let your best friend know that.
Alfred Jones was your best friend, has been since the fourth grade when he stood up for you against some of the bullies that made you their target. Ever since then, you two had been close.
Over the years, you've developed a deep crush on Alfred, but of course you kept it to yourself daring not to tell him because you knew exactly what would happen.
It was something you were used to through the years, it was like your thing, always getting rejected.
You couldn't take that huge chance, getting rejected by Alfred might be the thing that would push you over the edge of just ending it all as terrible as that sounds.
You stood in front of your full length mirror studying the body that you hated to see each day wishing it looked thinner, more toned, but it wasn't. It was flabby and plump. There was no way Alfred would want you to be his girlfriend, he was to handsome to be with you.. he deserved better.
"That's what you get when you let your heart win!"
Your phone went off as you quickly grabbed it from the nightstand and flipping it to see a text from Alfred.
Hey babe, be there in 10
You smiled lightly at the text. He started calling you babe for some reason, you really didn't care because it made you feel important to him.. like he actually cared about you in a way.
Alright, I'll be ready :3
You flipped your phone closed and hurried to your closet to grab something to wear for the long day ahead, thank goodness it was Friday, and you couldn't take another day at the hell hole you called school.
You threw on your (favorite color) skinny jeans and a (favorite band) T-shirt and grabbed your favorite (favorite shoes) as you went in search of socks to wear. You heard a honk outside and cursed as you quickly put your socks and shoes on and quickly ran a brush through you (hair length and color) and quickly grabbed your backpack and rushed down the stairs and out of the door.
As you walked to Alfred's red Mustang you saw him waving at you through the windshield. You smiled back at him and waved back before getting into the car.
"Morning dude!" Alfred said leaning over to give you a hug which you accepted as you hugged him back inhaling his wonderful scent.
"Morning Alfred, sorry I didn't get out her quicker." You said as you reached behind you to put your seatbelt on.
"No problem babe, all that matters is I got to see that rockin' body of yours." He said giving you a wink as you let out a laugh and gently shoved his face.
"Whatever you dork, let's get going." He smiled lightly at you as he backed out of your driveway and headed towards the school.
"So¬_______, you coming to my party tonight?" Alfred asked you as he poked your side making you squeak and swat his hand away.
"No I'm not and don't do that Alf, you know I don't like it." You said gently giving him a slight pout.
"Please ______! You've never been to one and I invite you every time and babe, if you keep making that adorable face, I'm gunna keep poking you." He smirked at you as you pouted even more at your failed attempt.
You wouldn't mind the poking, but it was another reminder that you weren't skinny, you were fat. It made you feel like the Pillsbury Dough boy whenever Alfred poked you. He didn't know how it made you feel except for jumpy which your excuse to him was.
He'll never love you pig!
He wants someone skinner, prettier, someone that's not YOU!!
"_____!!" You snapped out of your daze as the voices quickly left your mind and you looked up into Alfred's worried face. You looked around your surroundings and noticed you were already at school.
"God _______, don't do that again man." Alfred gently grabbed your hand. You looked down at your hand that was in his and noticed you were visibly shaking.
"_______, are you okay, I'm gunna take you to a doctor." He pulled the car keys back out of his pocket, but you stopped him.
"Alfred, I'm fine don't worry about me, we're going to be late if we don't get in the building." You said as you reached down the grab your bag.
"Babe, you sure you want to go to school today, you're still shaking." He said unsure about your suggestion. You flashed him a small smile and nodded. He narrowed his eyebrows slightly.
"Alright ______, but promise me you'll call me if you start to feel weird at all okay?" He asked placing a firm hand on your shoulder.
"Okay Alfred, I promise." He smiled at you and held out his pinky for you. You giggled at the childish act but held your pinky out as well and wrapped it around his.
"Let's get going babe." You nodded and followed him towards the hell that was known as High School. He slung his arm around your shoulder pulling you closer to him. You felt a slight blush cross your (s/c) skin.
As you both got closer to the school, he detached himself from you. His class was on one end of the school while yours was on another. Before he made his way towards his first class he turned to you and pulled you into a tight hug.
Yes, Alfred hugged you many times, but this hug felt different. You couldn't explain it but it felt more intimate in a way. You wrapped your arms around his neck and hugged back.
"Remember your promise okay ______?" He asked looking at you. You nodded and smiled as you both let go of one another and went separate ways.
As you made your way to class images of Alfred and you kissing, going on dates, and other things popped up flashing through like a slideshow of some sorts. You smiled at those mental images wishing that they would become a reality for you, but as you continued to make your way to class, the torture started…
"Here comes the Whale!" Your eyes snapped over to a skinny girl who made the comment as you gave her a hard glare to which she took a step back from. You put on that hard mask you did each day as you walked inside the classroom and took your seat in the back like usual.
The teacher started the lesson, but you were in your own little world not really caring about the lesson or the usual whispers about you that floated around class.
The one thought on your mind was seeing Alfred again.
You felt something hit your chest and roll on your desk as you stared at the paper ball that got thrown at you. You rolled your (eye color) eyes and picked the note up and saw the usual picture of a Whale with your face on it which was drawn very poorly. You crumpled the note back up and threw it to the side not really caring.
Yup, it's going to be a total nightmare today….